About My Wife

“Your love is so much stronger than whatever troubles me.” My favorite line in the entire song. Yes I know that His strength is made perfect in our weakness, but somehow over the last eighteen months of her life, I couldn’t shake the feeling that this mountain of cancer was a test of  both our love and our faith. So we resolved that after many years of marriage, ups and downs- we were now finally facing our mountain. How easier it was to sing than it was to live it, I thought. But not for Marsha. Oh no Sir/Maam….she was determined to live that song- to make it a reality.

 

I saw the fight in her eyes….the will to live.

I saw the light of love in her eyes…..she told us everyday that she loves us.

I saw peace in her eyes…..God’s will be done- this was one of her final words to me as she calmed my fears that Wednesday night before she passed.

 

Indeed her love was so much stronger than whatever troubled me. 

 

I recalled asking the voice/thought how will this book end and suffice to say I didn’t get an answer then and in some respects I still don’t know how it will end. What I do know is that this mountain that you climbed revealed your undying love for me and our girls. This rocky, perilous mountain of cancer showcased your baptism of Grace and Humility. You climbed this mountain not just looking out for yourself but others on your way to its summit. And as you dodged the falling rocks in your ascent to the top, you taught those of us still at  the  base of the mountain, the beauty in pain, we are lost in the reverie of your unending strength, faith and love. 

 

Just recently in the midst of my grief a good friend sent me these words of comfort- “The finest souls are those who gulped pain and avoided making others taste it.” Marsha Renae Lazarus-Powell, the love of my life, my forever soulmate, you my darling are truly the finest soul. I will forever love you for how you climbed this mountain of life. 

 

I love you for showing me the reality of your song!